Life of a Cancer Patient: Part One

So you just moved out of your parents house. You got a cute little apartment and the rent is too high but whatever its yours ( and your 5 roommates) and that’s all that matters! You’re working at a steady job that doesn’t relate in any way, shape, or form to what you went to school for but whatever- its money.

You’re so stinking tired, but it must be from that cold you can’t shake and all the extra hours you’ve been picking up.

One day, while working, you notice how sore you are. You rub your shoulders and feel a lump. What the hell is that? It moves. That’s weird. “Hey Susan! Look at this, it moves!”

A few weeks go by and that little bump won’t budge. You go to the Doctor, they tell you to try not to touch it and to take some Advil.

A month passes and you feel like you need to take action. That sucker is still there. What is it that they say about being your own advocate? “Ya, I should do that!”, you think. In the back of your mind you’re also thinking… “and I should totally do it before I’m 26 and my parent’s health insurance coverage runs up.”

You get sent to a specialist who casually feels you all up and down and you pretend not to be embarrassed. He asks if he can do a biopsy today. Jeesh what’s the rush, buddy? Wait a minute… aren’t biopsies for…

2 weeks later you get the results call from your doctor. You were so nervous at work that you got sent home and thank god you did because this phone call would not have been pretty in front of others.

The doctor asks you if you’re alone or if you’d like to call someone to come over before you talk with him. You beg him to just say it because it’s killing you. Hodgkins Lymphoma he says. He spells it for you. Don’t google it, he says. He talks of an oncologist appointment he’s made for you the next day. You can’t breathe. Suddenly the Earth has lost all oxygen. Your whole body seems to be doing the Harlem Shake without your consent. You call your Mom at work and ask her to come home. Same with your sister, and your boyfriend. Somehow you made it from sitting up to laying down in fetal position. Tears don’t come until you have to look into the eyes of the ones you love and tell them. ” I have cancer.”

 

 

This is an abridged and modified version of the beginning of my journey with cancer. While writing it, my stomach began to turn, just as it did on that fateful day in June of 2011. If you’d like to share how your journey started please do in the comments section. Hearing others’ stories and seeing the similarities makes you feel much less alone.

 
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One thought on “Life of a Cancer Patient: Part One

  1. Wow Your story was very touching. I was the same way just had turned 21 a couple months ago new year couldnt wait to party all yest Long going to bars and clubs all the way until My 22nd vday I had just began My job had about 3 months There they all loved me i was a hard worker had My amazing boyfriend and all of a sudden I was just so tired all the time but t it was just because i was working alot then while laying down talking on the phone and noticed a large bump on of My neck right side never thought nothing just curious then thought to myself ill ask My sisters when i see them but ofcourse would forget. Then jan 12 I had been drinking well Jan 13th My whole right side of My neck swollen I woke up in a pánic Sure made me forget I was hungover I anxiously awaited for My mom and siblings to finally get home and I rushed to explain to them everyone thought I had the mumps and were even giving me.advice to home rememdies but deep.down.I knew it was something greater than thatd me a drs appt from there I got a ct scan then got sent to a specialist all while I waited for these appointments I kinda pre diagnosed myself with hodgkins lymphoma from what I had read in google and Sure enough the specialist suggested it being that but wanted to do a biopsy Jan 30 and on Feb 1st mom came home and broke the news to me that the results came back positive for hodgkins lymphoma now im undergoing chemo until July Luckly I found it early before it got to spread so Its only on My right neck side and behind My nose. I have learned so much I am greatful to god for everything he has given me and i know has put this bump in the road for me to prove how strong I can be. And that I need to built a stronger relationship with him. God only gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers

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